That your biggest fear/fantasy ….. right?

“Grandma’s cough, my biggest fear and fantasy
When I ain’t in her arms all I’m making is enemies”

When I look at society today, I feel alienated to extent to the choices of many things. In a sense, the whole “wow this amazing” feeling is gone for most things. As a matter of fact, recently I’ve been living more within myself which is very unlike an extrovert.  Its been an combination of exciting and frightening for the most part; going through the mind that is my personal deep mine. Searching for treasure which is memories & answers to the moments & questions I have.

That childish outlook I have of life seems to have an expiry date. Sadly I can’t seem to use it all the time anymore or risk making enemies in this toxic world. To the few that know, the passion still there and burning brightly. Yet, I’m aware of those trying to steal and put out this flame. Almost like a game of keep away, how long can I keep this fire burning before those that seek it blow it out?

It funny, the brighter the flame, the more I feel I can accomplish with my life. The tunnel of ones mine/d also becomes clearer and don’t lead to culdesacs. Yet when I let the flame almost fizzles out I’m lost & limited in the directions I can go. One thing that clear from the two methods is that a balance & proper management of how this flame is used will decide how I will unlock the secrets of this mine/d I carry around.

I don’t know how much time I have left like the rest you don’t know either. Yet, each new fantasy, question, fear, answer, etc. pushes me to discover & fulfill that desire or squash that bone chilling gut feeling. The clock always ticking down & that the scary part for me.

Ultimately, what sad is this exact process isn’t discuss openly among our society in face to face conversations. Were left to text, video chat, blog in my case, or suppress until we can’t hold no more. That decline in some area of life of human interaction with people is a result of this growing problem for some. Those that can relate or understand our problems I’ve felt been a crucial antidote in solving our personal mine/d. Yet one the other hand maybe its a sight of an evolution to a higher state were just realizing is possible….

“Because the internet, mistakes are forever
But if we f*@k up on this journey at least we’re together
Man, I wish I could go back and tell that kid it’s make-believe
Make ’em believe in themselves, people who needed my help
Feelings I felt, keeling myself
No one’ ever been this lost…. “

 

Find me,

 

#MisunderstoodProphet

 

wpid-images-1.jpg.jpegPlease Help Others… Don’t be afraid

Holding Grudges…. right?

I’m not a fan of all this resentment people hold for their ex’s in this era. From my experience, its a build up of bitterness that take the form of what our exes flaws are. As a result, the negative reminders end up being the hurtful daggers that pierce their confidence if strong enough. However, as humans we all know that perfection is something very, very few of us will ever achieve in our lifetime.  I’m firm believer that in order to succeed you got to accept your flaws and nourish them while refining your strengths. As a illustration, consider how you build a team for a task/sport/activity:

What kind of leader do you need?
How many members are required?
What is your Mission?
Which skills are required to make the team a success?
Is the team all on the same page and vision?

All these plus other factors are generally consider at one point of time for many leaders and companies during the process. Job interviews are something we can all relate to. Our resume are suppose to reflect who we are and our experience. Yet some of us lie to cover up our flaws in order to fit the built they seek and get ahead. But what about the people you live with; Surely the fact your family/roommates/your own bad habits hasn’t created negativity in your own life…. right?

Is it because they made an mistake that we can’t forgive them?
Do we not trust anyone to heal our wounds but ourselves?
Did we not reach our standard of expectation for the day?
Can we not escape these cycles we’ve created due to miscommunication?

In the end, these answers you may seek came to me through personally closure with oneself or the person the grudge is held on. We shouldn’t have to carry anymore weight than we need to in our respective lives. Some like the pressure, as they feel they’ll achieve their potential and surpass it this way. Others seek the answer to release them from this pressure to flourish.  Those a common theme with grudges is time either feed them or starve them. Your desire to grow and where your journey will take you will decide this.

“I can’t count the reasons I should stay…. one by one they all just fade away!” – The 88

 

I’m lost,

 

#MisunderstoodProphet

I look, My I see You

I look into the water
I see you smiling back

I look into your eyes
I see your soul crack

I look into this gap
I see something shining trapped

I look for an answer
I see nothing but black

I look and seek potential
I see the ace planted

I BELIEVE IN …

I see you break free
My look for an escape

I see your emotions erupt
My look painted thus disrupt

I see what you desire
My look passionately  catches fire

I see what you’ve become
My look says everything numb

I see, the smile,  flood
My look, I’m lost, *thud*